Not much going on today. Trying to find the energy to clean up the house somewhat and do laundry. I've been feeling both hot and cold for the past couple of days... clammy, I guess. Terrible feeling. Plus, the taste of food is aweful, so I can only eat fruits and steamed veggies. Everything else is pretty gross. It's hard to stay hydrated this way.
I have so many things that I want to get done, and I just don't have the energy. It's funny, though. People don't really "get" how little energy I have.
I'll say to someone, "I have no energy today."
And the'll reply with, "Yeah, me neither."
No, really.
I have motivation.
I have things that I want to do.
Things that I'd like to do.
I literally have NO ENERGY!
It is physically difficult to get up and do the things that need to be done.
Oh well.
Plus, the weather has warmed back up and it's beautiful again, so our friends want to go on a motorcycle ride... I don't have the energy for that, even with the sissy bar!
Ash wants to go to the pool... the hot sun (plus getting Carley ready and carrying all our stuff) literally drains the life out of me.
When I don't feel good, I really just want to be left alone, but life doesn't stop.
Ashleigh still wants her hair highlighted.
Carley still wants to eat dinner (I dunno why... she ate yesterday!).
It's all very exhausting.
So, that's how I'm feeling lately. So many things that I want to do, so many things that will have to be put off until they can be done.
Maybe I'll just go take a nap for a little while....
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Yesterday's chemo is catching up to me
Hey, everyone! Yesterday's chemo is finally catching up to me. I got up this morning and took Carley to school, then pressure washed the driveway. Tim planted a bunch of bushes in front of the house yesterday afternoon, and mud kept getting tracked into the house, so that needed to be taken care of. I cancelled Paxil's vet appointment, because he sounds like he's starting to feel better. Whatever it was, it seems to be going away. So, I just got out of the bath, and was drinking a bottle of water when I realized that my tastebuds are leaving me.... food was fun while it lasted. That's one of the yucky side-affects of the chemo. Food tastes terrible! Every time I can start to taset food again, they give me another big dose of the crap. I'll be so glad when this is over! So, now I'm whipped, and I'm headed off to bed for a couple of hours. Hope everyone has a nice day! Hugz, ~Brenda
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Yup, it's Tuesday again.
Hey, everyone! I went yesterday and got my blood test done, and everything came out normal. So, today they gave me my big dose of chemo. It usually takes about 24 hours before I start to feel crappy, but I'm already feeling a little drained and run down tonight. Oh well, I'll just go to bed after I write this.
The house is moving along slowly. The bedroom and stairway is all drywalled in, and they've been working on the bathroom. It'll be pretty cool once it's all done, and then we have room for people to visit us! Maybe we'll be able to clean all of the construction stuff out of the garage and start having people over to hang out at the bar again. That would be nice, because I miss playing darts. The last party we had was for Halloween.
In other news, the girls are doing fine. We celebrated Easter with baskets, then went to Kevin and Tammy's house for dinner and an egg hunt. We had ham, turkey, mashed potatoes, a 7-layer salad, macaroni and cheese, rolls, deviled eggs and stuffing. Of course, Tim ate so many eggs that he just about killed me Sunday night in bed... he was so stinky!!! lol.
By the way, Kevin came home from the hospital on Wednesday after his heart attack. He's doing much better now, but I'm sure he's bored. He's been working full time pretty much his whole life, so he has no idea what to do with himself. So, I've been watching him like a Mother Hen to keep him out of trouble. I'm sure it probably drives him nuts, but we don't want him rushing back into too much physical activity too soon, until he's cleared from the doctor. I'm sure I'm driving him nuts! Oh well!!!
Let's see... oh, I need to take my poor kitty to the vet tomorrow. His "meower" has been broken since Friday. He always comes into the bedroom and "talks" to us, and lately, his Meow has sounded like the batteries dying in a child's toy. I don't know if cats can get laryngitis, but that's what it sounds like. He acts fine otherwise. Still as crazy as ever!
One more thing, Tim talked to our friend, JD on the phone tonight. Some of you may be familiar with who he is, but for those that don't know, we got to know him and his family when we lived in Spain. They let us live with them for a little while when we moved back to the states, and then they ended up moving back to Rota. He had given us the painting of the lady in our bar. Anyways, he got onto me for not being on here often enough lately! I had to idea that there were actually people out there that checked this site daily! Oops! Here's the thing:
Since I don't work, and I feel like the only thing really going on in my life is cancer and construction, I can't think of anything interesting to get on here and talk about! I promise that I will try harder to keep everyone more informed, though. I realize that a lot of people that I don't talk to too often probably worry when I don't get on here for a while. They must think that something has happened to me. Don't worry too much. Nothing has happened. I do get depressed somewhat because I feel like I have no purpose in life. I get up, take Carley to school and then pick her up in the afternoon. I attempt to straighten out the house and do laundry when it needs it, but with construction, cleaning is pretty much useless. So, I'm bored, and therefore, feel my life is boring. So, I'M SORRY for not being more vigilant.
One more thing, I'd like to say hello to all of our friends in Spain! I can't begin to tell you how much all of our family misses being over there. We miss our friends, the places we used to go, the things we used to do, the carnivals and ferias, the beach being so close... mostly, I think we miss hanging out at the Residencia. So, I wanted to send love and hugs to everyone over there. Paqui, JD tells me that you've been able to find out what your headaches were being caused from. I'm so glad to hear that you're doing better! What a relief. Huge hugs to you, too. Thank you, everyone, that had a part in sending us the care package, too! I love all of the beautiful scarves. The olives are awesome!!! I think we miss those the most. Also, Tim's busted open two of the bottles of Cruz that were sent. He saves them for special occasions like someone would a fine wine. He's too cute.
I guess that's about it for now. Like I said, I'll put a lot more effort into being on here a lot more often like I used to be. Hope you all had a wonderful Easter!
Love and Hugz from our family, ~Brenda
The house is moving along slowly. The bedroom and stairway is all drywalled in, and they've been working on the bathroom. It'll be pretty cool once it's all done, and then we have room for people to visit us! Maybe we'll be able to clean all of the construction stuff out of the garage and start having people over to hang out at the bar again. That would be nice, because I miss playing darts. The last party we had was for Halloween.
In other news, the girls are doing fine. We celebrated Easter with baskets, then went to Kevin and Tammy's house for dinner and an egg hunt. We had ham, turkey, mashed potatoes, a 7-layer salad, macaroni and cheese, rolls, deviled eggs and stuffing. Of course, Tim ate so many eggs that he just about killed me Sunday night in bed... he was so stinky!!! lol.
By the way, Kevin came home from the hospital on Wednesday after his heart attack. He's doing much better now, but I'm sure he's bored. He's been working full time pretty much his whole life, so he has no idea what to do with himself. So, I've been watching him like a Mother Hen to keep him out of trouble. I'm sure it probably drives him nuts, but we don't want him rushing back into too much physical activity too soon, until he's cleared from the doctor. I'm sure I'm driving him nuts! Oh well!!!
Let's see... oh, I need to take my poor kitty to the vet tomorrow. His "meower" has been broken since Friday. He always comes into the bedroom and "talks" to us, and lately, his Meow has sounded like the batteries dying in a child's toy. I don't know if cats can get laryngitis, but that's what it sounds like. He acts fine otherwise. Still as crazy as ever!
One more thing, Tim talked to our friend, JD on the phone tonight. Some of you may be familiar with who he is, but for those that don't know, we got to know him and his family when we lived in Spain. They let us live with them for a little while when we moved back to the states, and then they ended up moving back to Rota. He had given us the painting of the lady in our bar. Anyways, he got onto me for not being on here often enough lately! I had to idea that there were actually people out there that checked this site daily! Oops! Here's the thing:
Since I don't work, and I feel like the only thing really going on in my life is cancer and construction, I can't think of anything interesting to get on here and talk about! I promise that I will try harder to keep everyone more informed, though. I realize that a lot of people that I don't talk to too often probably worry when I don't get on here for a while. They must think that something has happened to me. Don't worry too much. Nothing has happened. I do get depressed somewhat because I feel like I have no purpose in life. I get up, take Carley to school and then pick her up in the afternoon. I attempt to straighten out the house and do laundry when it needs it, but with construction, cleaning is pretty much useless. So, I'm bored, and therefore, feel my life is boring. So, I'M SORRY for not being more vigilant.
One more thing, I'd like to say hello to all of our friends in Spain! I can't begin to tell you how much all of our family misses being over there. We miss our friends, the places we used to go, the things we used to do, the carnivals and ferias, the beach being so close... mostly, I think we miss hanging out at the Residencia. So, I wanted to send love and hugs to everyone over there. Paqui, JD tells me that you've been able to find out what your headaches were being caused from. I'm so glad to hear that you're doing better! What a relief. Huge hugs to you, too. Thank you, everyone, that had a part in sending us the care package, too! I love all of the beautiful scarves. The olives are awesome!!! I think we miss those the most. Also, Tim's busted open two of the bottles of Cruz that were sent. He saves them for special occasions like someone would a fine wine. He's too cute.
I guess that's about it for now. Like I said, I'll put a lot more effort into being on here a lot more often like I used to be. Hope you all had a wonderful Easter!
Love and Hugz from our family, ~Brenda
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